Paying attention to associations around my pelvis felt like Pandora's Box
Have you ever been afraid of what may come up when you open a conversation with yourself or someone else? If so, you may have just identified a path of healing.
Getting to a peaceful state sometimes means walking through demonic territory first. If you choose to go down a path of healing, it’s helpful to know facing these scary things takes the power out of them little by little.
I recently had an experience where associations and feelings started “flying out of me” and remembered Pandora’s Box.
In my case, the box was my pelvis. The demons were my unwanted associations. I literally wanted to run away. But, this day, I had the courage to stay just a little longer.
I just had a wonderful experience and ironically, having goodness often brings on anxiety for me, but that story is for another time.
I handle anxiety by lying down to pay attention to my bodies tight reaction to anxiety. Lately, I have been focusing on the physical sensations to get relief. This is important because I got irritated with my self when I couldn’t focus where I wanted to.
I first noticed the “anxiety” had an energy around my face and torso. Then, I had an intuition to focus on how the energy would affect the sensations in my pelvis.
I became impatient with myself when old thinking memories cut off the physical sensations. The harder I focused on sensations in my pelvis the more my old visual images and stories kept coming up of past sexual experiences.
How on Earth did I miss it? I was focusing entirely on the physical experiences in my pelvis, trying to ignore the cognitive memories that were associated with the sensations. Then it hit me, Of course cognitive memories would come up with the physical sensations since you can’t have one without the other. There’s even a saying for that, “Neurons that fire together wire together.”
So with a focus of sensations on my pelvis, I had to walk through the thinking barrier to get to my physical experience. My emotional experiences wanted to be seen, too. I was having a tidal wave of pelvic associations, and trying to control them. Have you ever tried to control a tidal wave?
“Well, that ain’t gonna happen.”
So I stayed with all the associations.
And you know what? I could stay! These scary things, didn’t scare me that day. I held my ground. It got easier to stay. And now, I know more. I have more confidence with myself. And, I know if you got scared, I could sit with you too and not run away. And that’s important because connection is the ultimate joy. And this brings me peace and I bet it will bring peace to you, too.
So, the next time you are afraid of what may come up when you open a conversation with yourself or someone else, know this is exactly the conversation that could help you heal.
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Stephanie Rauch has a Ph.D. in Counselor education, is a licensed professional counselor and a licensed massage therapist in North Carolina.